When you know, you just know. I have decided to change most of my ways, and I’m really going to try to stick to it. When you finally put your pride aside just to keep someone, maybe that’s when you know you found it. Maybe I found it, the one, my one, forever. I’m going to do all I can to not fuck it up.
I think my biggest goal through my whole life when it comes to love is to find someone who won’t leave and will find me still worth it even when I’m impossible. Someone who, years into being together, will still tell me I look nice after I get ready even when I feel otherwise. Someone who won’t call me names a lot and hurt my feelings. Maybe I’m asking too much, maybe I’m just meant to be alone. Sometimes I remember how incredibly impossible I am to be with and I then remind myself how I will be the reason I end up alone.
“People think depression is about being sad. They think it’s just when you ‘feel down’. It’s not. It’s like a darkness that creeps over you and fills you. It drains all your emotions. It takes everything from you, and leaves you feeling hollow and numb. It’s not sadness, it’s not anger, it’s hopelessness. Imagine waking up and there being no colour. Walking outside and feeling no wind. Eating a meal and tasting nothing. Holding somone and feeling completely alone at the same time. When you’re depressed, it’s not a bad mood. It’s a numb, empty, hollowness that seems to never leave. It’s feeling alone in a room full of people. You feel like there’s no hope left.”— Anonymous (via brokken-dreams)